Friday, April 17, 2009

Thoughts



The other day Kyla fell down the stairs pretty badly-she was okay, just hurt and scared. She actually let me hold her and rock her for a few minutes. Usually if she gets hurt, she is mad and goes off on her own, doesn't want me and will hit if I try to hold and hug her. It is sad, because as her Mommy, I just want to hold her until she feels better, but she doesn't want it.
That makes me think of two things.
The first is; I remember when my friend died, I was 16 years old...we were at the grave dedication, and it hurt so bad. I can't even describe the raw aching in my heart. I was so devastated. I wanted to be alone. It was so cold. Dad came up to me and put his jacket on me- and I threw it back at him and walked away. He followed me and gave it to me again, ad I did it again-ruder this time. He was hurt. I was mad. I didn't want to be warm, I didn't want to be consoled or loved. I hurt inside and wanted to hurt outside too. Somehow I thought that would make the inside hurt go away. Dad saw his little girl hurting and wanted to make it all better. But I wouldn't let him. I didn't let him near me for almost 3 years.
And that brings me to the 2nd thing. Our Father in Heaven sees us hurting and wants to help. His healing is through His Son- our Savior. He knows that the atonement of Christ has real power to heal- so much more even than a mother's hug, or a Dad's coat- and so He always invites us, with open arms, to partake of His love. And what do we do? Do we run to Him and lean on Himn and find solace? Or do we retreat into our little corners and say, "Go away! I want to hurt- I want to stay angry! I don't want you!"
We are so foolish! So often, like the stubborn two year old, or the confused sixteen year old, we shy away from our source of comfort and strength.
And does he withdraw His love? No! Just like my Dad did for almost 3 years, He waits- with open arms- loving us completely...crying for our sorrows, and hoping for our repentence...waiting to welcome us home and fill us with His comfort and love.
Just as I am grateful for an earthly Father who loved me enough to continue to give me his love-I am grateful for a Heavenly Father and His unending, perfect love. I am so thankful that our girls can depend on Him and find comfort in His arms.

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

Cute things...



Today I was doing crunches, the backwards kind where you lift your legs. I was counting out loud, and Ky was watching me intently. Then she plopped her little self down on the floor and started kicking her legs in the air, saying over and over again, "dree, dree, dree" (three)...the funniest part was that she had shoes on and kept kicking herself in the face over and over again, but still didn't stop! Soon she gave me this look like, "mom, this is NO FUN! Why are you doing this?!" All the while kicking herself in the face and chanting "dree, dree, dree"! :-) Oh, to have the flexibility of a child!

When we have family scripture study, I let Kyla read with me, and she helps me with the word "and". So every time she sees letters in a book, she gets really excited and yells, "AN!" Yesterday I was watching Kyla play and she didn't know it. She ran and grabbed her "pidures" (scriptures) and started to "read". She was babbling and doing nonsense words, while pointing along with her finger. Then all of a sudden she would yell "AN"! Then she would throw her little fist in the air and yell, "DO!" (that is what she does for Nephi...I will GO, I will DO!) and then go back to gabbling. It was SO cute!

Unfortunately, her new favorite word is, you guessed it... NO. She strings words together now, but they usually involve the word no. The longest phrase that I have heard her say yet was, "NO, Daddy, BABY!" (She didn't want daddy to touch her baby doll.) UGH. What do we do? Say, "no, kyla, don't tell us no!"???

And the last thing I wanted to write about was that today I was a manly woman and fixed Kyla's crib into a Toddler bed! She is just growing up so quickly! I put her down for a nap, and it was funny, because she played in there for over an hour, and didn't get out of bed once, even though she could. That surprised me a lot.

I am so grateful to be a Mom, it fills me with such joy and hope to see these precious children grow!

Monday, April 13, 2009

Just a bunch of fun, random pictures!


Naomi loving on her Uncle Daniel after her blessing!


I just love this picture! This is when she was brand new,
I think still at the hospital!


Modeling her Valentine's day glasses from Grandma!


Two beautiful girls! These are our neices Brecken and Taylor
(Ren and Russ' girls) WE MISS THEM LIKE CRAZY!

Our cute little neice, Charity...she is SO FUN!
(Matt and Lizzie's daughter...and no, the glasses aren't hers!)

My Brother Joseph and his wife Ashley...they are hilarious!
(and OH so cute!)
I know that I have been posting a ton lately...we aren't going to have the internet for much longer, so I have to blog like crazy while I can! :-(
On Saturday Shineah and her friend came over for dinner and an Easter Egg hunt...it was so fun to see Kyla trying to catch on to what was going on. We kept explaining that a bunny had come and left her some treats in some eggs. We also gave her a little stuffed bunny, so now she thinks that the stuffed bunny gave her the "balls". (She never did catch on to the fact that they were eggs, not balls...) When she sees her bunny, she yells, "ball! Ball!" and then starts looking around in the couch, trying to find more hidden eggs.
We didn't have any egg dye, so we colored boiled eggs with crayons. It worked great, and I think that it was a lot more fun...probably that is because I am just not very good at dying them.
Kyla figured out how to get the wrappers off the chocolate we put in the eggs, and by the time we realized that she knew how, I don't know how many she had eaten. She was pretty wired last night... :-/
Our camera is lost, but Neya took some pictures, so I will have to get some from her and put them on here when I do.
Happy Easter everyone!

Saturday, April 11, 2009

No phones and random...

Well, for those of you who don't know, we sold our phones and are phoneless until next week. Then Adam will have a new number, and I will have his old one. (We won't have the 634 number anymore.) Just a heads-up.
I had to take a minute and write about our fun, crazy day yesterday. I was having one of those "talkin' to myself and feeling blue" moods, and then there was a knock on the door and when I opened it, there were Daniel and Stephanie! Nothing like your big brother surprising you to make you feel special and loved. It was so nice to have grown-ups to talk to for a little while. While they were here, Adam came home and then a plumber arrived to fix our bathtub that broke a couple of days ago. Adam was up helping him, and Daniel and Stephanie and I were downstairs, when all of a sudden, I heard a terrible sound coming from our laundry room (which is right below the bathroom)...it sounded something like "WOOSH!" and sure enough, when I opened the door, water was pooring from the ceiling (all over our laundry that was waiting to get cleaned...at least it wasn't clean yet!). The plumber came running down and told us that it looked like it had been doing that for a while and asked if we hadn't noticed anything before...well, we just thought that our washer had been leaking!
So he tore out our ceiling and replaced the pipe (which had a hole the size of a quarter in it). It was awesome that Daniel and Steph were here to help us with the girls while I moved wet laundry and Adam helped the plumber!
And it just made me think again how hard of a job that would be...I had to wear my pretty yellow dishwashing gloves just to touch the yucky laundry...no way I would reach up into a spider-infested moldy wet dark ceiling...I think that in some ways I am very much DebT's neice!

Tuesday, April 7, 2009

Conference Weekend







Wasn't this past weekend wonderful? It is always so neat to hear from the Prophet of the Lord, and from all of the inspired leaders. Adam and I went out to Grantsville for the weekend, and it was fun to be with family. We met some of Destinee's roommates, and Derek was so sweet and shared his hard-earned conference tickets with them so that they could have the opportunity to go and see the Sunday afternoon session live. One of the girls, Jessica, is from Florida and had never been before. Adam's Dad took the girls in to Salt Lake in time for the session and then waited for them to take them home. What a sacrifice! Every time that I am with Adam's familia, I am struck again at how wonderful they all are, and how blessed I am to be a part of their family. My girls are so lucky to have wonderful examples on both sides of the family!
I am still working on getting my pictures from the weekend loaded on...so I will get them here when I can.
Also last weekend, sweet DebT took family pictures for us!! Yeah! We love them, I just wish that I could use ALL of them on here.
We left Kyla for a night on her own out with Grandma...and when she came home last night, she was DEVASTATED!! Her little heart was broken...she sobbed for an hour after Grandma drove away. I tried everything she loves to make her happy...ring around the rosies, books, songs...nothing worked. She just kept asking for Grandma. She finally calmed down as we watched home videos of herself. But then on one Daddy said, "Kyla, can you say Grandma?" The tears started all over again! :-/ This morning when she woke up she kept saying so hopefully, "Grandma-downstairs?"

Tithing Blessings


This morning when Adam opened the door to go to work, there was a big box of food on our doorstep! He brought it in for me and then left for work, and it made me cry when I went through it...it was just what we needed; whole milk for Kyla, fruits and vegetables...bread. Somebody was so thoughtful to not only sacrifice time and money, but to think of what would really be helpful to us. A big thanks to "someone"...I think that I know who it was!
As I was thinking about it this morning, I realized that a big thanks goes out to the Lord too. Every time Adam and I have been in need, He has inspired somebody to help us, or He has worked miracles in our behalf. I am so grateful for the law of the tithe...it is so true, there is no way to outgive the Lord. As soon as we obey Him, He blesses us again, and we are still indebted to Him. I love Him and am thankful to Him for watching out for our little family always. What a loving Father in Heaven we have!

Monday, April 6, 2009

wahh!

I was going to post all about conference weekend and getting family pics (thanks deb!) but Adam just informed me that he has to take the computer to school! What a sad day!!